I feel, therefore I live. I am an extension, a version if you like, an\u00a0individual\u00a0embodiment of Life itself\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2018I think, therefore I am\u2019 <\/em>is Rene Descartes\u2019 famous quote which has inspired many, including Alexander Belyaev in the 1920s\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Well, for me,\u00a0to feel\u00a0<\/em>is just another way\u00a0to think<\/em>. I experience and touch things through feeling them and not simply read about them, contemplate them, or paraphrase them. I want to see things with my own eyes, not so much read them in books and I want to touch, taste, and so on. <\/p>\n\n\n\n From books I get some ideas, I feel inspired or I just like a good twist to a scenario\u2026 But I don\u2019t see the world through books, for that, I have experience and feel with\u00a0my own soul, mind, body\u2026 And I\u2019m talking about doing extreme activities or living an adventurous life\u2026 It only means to let your imagination expand and have the courage to live out something to its fullest potential. Kind of like seeing something to the end, not stop half-way through, because you don\u2019t know what\u2019s going to happen\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cTo live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.\u201d<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n -Oscar Wilde<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n In my world, Emotion is the fuel of existence. It also lights the ignition spark in everything I do. Time proves all that happens within<\/em> and from<\/em> life but not Life itself. Like the famous saying goes \u201cInfinity is a Zero with a twist\u201d\u2026 What if it untwists? How will time prove it, when it can\u2019t divide it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n If existence is a sum of experiences, each of which constructs of feelings, associations, different meaning, and time has validated it, and all that is within you in every moment, then what it has to only get purer and purer, and simpler and simpler as the memory refines it. But for some reason, it doesn\u2019t\u2026 There\u2019s always another twist, and another twist, and another twist\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n What if we become oversensitive to the point of burning? Maybe then we\u2019ll be almost at the point of actually living outside of the constantly switching predicaments\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n I recently discovered for myself that the scenarios in my existence only get clothed and masked in different d\u00e9cor, the roles assigned are slightly rearranged as to get me to a point of forgetting the furthest layer and make me not realize, I\u2019m in the same stage play.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00a0I had an interesting experience this summer. It started with a random event:\u00a0\u00a0my mother dropping a napkin in a restaurant… As she was dropping the napkin, two elderly women were talking about Cairo and the Egyptian exposition in the city center this summer and my mother was reaching for the napkin on the floor and was telling them something about the exposition. At that very moment – then and there\u00a0the\u00a0restaurant changed physically for me: the era, the women, my mother\u2026 Everybody looked different. My mother turned into a\u00a0woman\u00a0with an old-fashioned ivory dress, a big hat, and a white umbrella\u2026\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00a0I discovered that my imagination sent us to the 1920s and as she picked up the napkin, I suddenly recognized my mother in the\u00a0woman, who was my older cousin in that retro scenario\u2026 And all the memories of that era and my existence in it, including the almost identical\u00a0type of\u00a0close connection I have with her, poured within me\u2026 In my mind, I lived through\u00a0the whole\u00a0thing, with the memories intact and then my feelings and my consciousness just jumped right back in the present moment as if nothing happened.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n The downside of it all, intense experiences like this also makes a mess out of what\u00a0should be\u00a0a bliss\u2026 I\u2019ve realized long ago that experiences are never perfect, they are never completely satisfying, and they are often confusing because of the feelings, intensity of emotion and so forth, that they were\u00a0made\u00a0up of. Satisfaction always slips through the present. <\/p>\n\n\n\n The chain of experience creates conflict and friction while unfolding through events\u2026 In my case, my events are in patterns and loops that I discover or recognize on my path. The only tragedy in life to me is as T.S. Eliot says is\u00a0\u201cto have the experience and miss the meaning\u201d<\/em>. That\u2019s the reason patterns and loops occur, so that one day, we get the meaning and complete the experience\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Ami Tola<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I feel, therefore I live. I am an extension, a version if you like, an\u00a0individual\u00a0embodiment of Life itself\u2026 \u2018I think, therefore I am\u2019 is Rene Descartes\u2019 famous quote which has inspired many, including Alexander Belyaev in the 1920s\u2026 Well, for me,\u00a0to feel\u00a0is just another way\u00a0to think. 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